Dream a Little Bigger, Darling

A person who has no secrets is a liar. –Anne Roiphe


In every human’s heart there is a small space where it was dark, cold and remains locked from both outside and inside. This small place is where all the secrets are gathered. It is the individual’s territory where no one is allowed to enter even to come near. Regardless of what position they held in our life (family, friends, lover or spouse) the door is remains bolted. Well probably in some cases there is a small leakage of secret but it will never pour out. To open up this door and expose our secrets to others needs a lot of courage and trust. To bare our very soul to someone is scary and the consequences might be dire also probably haunting us forever.

To be honest I’m a secretive person. I guess I was born with this trait. I don’t like to share everything with everyone. Even if some people claimed that they know me very well you better not believe them because it was never the case. Yes they probably know me but never that well. To keep secrets especially on matters that related to you gives a sense of having control on something. You held the power whether to share them to others or keep them for yourself. We afraid to share because we don’t trust others even if we trust them how are they going to react once they know about your secret? Will you remain as a person which they care, respect and love when they learn the dark side of you? Will they walk away and never see you again? Or will they mock you and leer at you?

With this concern I decided to keep my secrets in a small space where it was dark, cold and remains locked from both outside and inside. Will the bolted door open someday? I don’t know. It seems that I have to wait for a while for the exact answer.